Tuesday, May 8, 2012

trying not to go crazy about it

So, I am officially "not dieting" at the moment.  Due to ongoing annoying persistent illnesses of various types (stomach flu, bronchitis, menstrual cramps,) I have decided to nourish my body back to health by eating healthfully, rather than knocking it down and commanding it to lose weight already.  Maybe it's the start of one of my "self healing new-age phases."

This annoys my husband.  No, I still have not read "The China Study."  Instead, I am reading "Energy Medicine," and trying to clean out my chakras.  I think it might even work, I mean, if I didn't have kids who yell and need to be driven everywhere and who need to eat all the time, and then get changed in and out of various uniforms, like, if I could actually get some rest, yes, it might even work.

Not dieting is challenging.  Because then I may say to myself, "Hey, I'm not dieting, I can eat that."

But I can't eat that, really I know that.  Sometimes I find my stomach growling and dizziness approaching, because I've waited so long to eat something.  Because it's almost easier to just not deal with food, than to figure out what to eat that will not make me gain weight after this damn low carb "diet."

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

Eight pounds, that's it!

That's all that I seem to have lost during this whole dieting experience.  But, I will say, that my waist is curving in more at the sides, my belt is on it's smallest notch, and my clothes fit better.  Also, I never really seemed to get in to the groove of exercising that is necessaryy to lose much weight.  Apart from the couple of weeks before the nasty stomach bug when I started walking every day and doing some Wii fit, there was always some reason not to exercise.

What will happen now?  Today I'm just laying in bed with hot tea, I feel like I'm on the verge of getting bronchitis, and I have menstrual cramps.  I've also lost me sense of humor, hopefully this will be temporary as well.  Anyways, there doesn't seem to be any chance of my moving more than necessary, it seems.  It's always a question, will exercising when I feel like this help me or make me more sick?  Sigh.....